More Than Language

Next Step #60 – July 29, 2009

The disenfranchised members of the Church – is language just a convenient scapegoat? (In His Steps? The Next Shoes? – definitely not about language!) Fr. Vazken gives instructions here on not just reading a prayer – but experiencing it! A look at the prayer/hymn Aravod Looso with an Armodoxy approach = don’t just read it, live it! Drop the camera, remove your eye from the viewfinder and you’ll see a beautiful life all around you. Today’s Next Step offers an exercise to holistic praying – by following the flow of the prayer and melody of St. Nersess Shnorhali. A preview of the “In Her Mittens” project by In His Shoes.
Music: Aram Khatchadourian’s “Dance of the Youths” from Gayane Ballet
Bubbles by Ani: Global proportions

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Sun and Moon: It’s the Coffee that’s important

Next Step #59 – July 22, 2009

Following up on the theme of Transfiguration, looking at light beyond its sources. The longest solar eclipse, the 40th Anniversary of the lunar landing, the sale of the St. James Church building on West Adams Blvd., and Croatia all come into play in this podcast. (Armenia and Croatia each become independent in 1991 but capitalism is probably the motive for this one!) Even the stove – “ojakh” is taken to a new level of central focus of spirit in the family, one that Michael Collins might appreciate. This is the prelude to Nersess Shnorhali’s Aravod Looso – but don’t look for a translation hear to find out why?
Song: John Bayless’ rendition of “Here Comes the Sun” (Bach on Abbey Road)
Bubbles by Ani: God’s coffee

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Croatia, Safeway, St. James and a Moon that continues to inspire


Croatia, Safeway, St. James and a Moon that continues to inspire: Happy 40th

They say that the hand-held GPS I use in my car is technologically more sophisticated than the Apollo 11 Lunar lander. Although I’ve never really used my GPS anywhere outside of the bounds of California, I guess I can accept such a statement. I remember when a stack of punch cards, the size of the Los Angeles Phone book were needed to program a computer for a simple tic-tac-toe simulation and today my kid runs graphically enhanced arcade style games on his hand held “toy.” (And the price for this technology? Have you bought memory lately? They’re literally throwing it away. 1 or 2 GB for the price of S&H!)

So we’ve come a long way in 40 years, but the memory I have of the day that “we” reached the moon is not ready for the bargain-bin of outdated memory modules.

July 20, 1969 was a Sunday. I was 13 years old, at a church picnic organized by the St. James Armenian Church in Los Angeles.

The St. James parish itself was going through difficult times. Bad feelings were lingering from the the sale of the church building on Adams Blvd. and a pending law suit, that the Catholicos himself was trying to step-in and mediate. This was causing division and disharmony in the community. There was talk about deceit, scandal and theft – yup, all the topics that are bulleted under the “church life” header. And with construction taking place on the new sanctuary on Slauson Ave., the annual picnic was relocated to Croatian Park, somewhere in the L.A. area.

Croatian Park was used by the Armenian community frequently for their summer gatherings. I thought the name had something to do with sewing, because my grandmother would “crochet” our sweaters. So I naturally thought Croatian Park was the hangout for old ladies, sitting around with their crochet needles, making their grand kids happy with their handiwork. Little did I realize that the Croats were in an independence struggle just as the Armenian. I’d like to believe this was the reason that we used the facility, though I tend to believe the rental price was probably discounted. Still, Croatian independence was declared the same year as the Armenian’s in 1991, so there might have been a greater tie than a cheap place to hold a picnic.

America was in turmoil. We had lost faith in the institutions. The same young president who promised us the moon by the decade’s end had been gunned down on our streets and there was much talk about a large scale conspiracy. The year before we had lost MLK and RFK to assassin’s bullets. Even the new institutions were failing – there was rumbling that the Beatles were about to split.

So a summer picnic, with Armenian music, friends from the church was a nice little escape for everyone. But on moon landing day? I mean this was historic and if you wanted escape, can you think of any place farther away?

My dad was not really an observer. He would rather participate than watch – but I guess this playground was a bit too far. So that Sunday, July 20, in the midst of this church picnic, my dad told me we’re going for a walk. I was excited – we were going to go someplace to watch the lunar landing! A few days earlier, I was up at the crack of dawn to watch Apollo 11 launch. “10-9-8, ignition sequence begins, 6-5…”, I can never forget those words from Mission Control. And when they reached “0” it was lift-off, from our old B&W set to the ends of my imagination.

We found a Safeway store. This was one of the first supermarket chains in our area. During those years they had introduced the “Super S” as a branch of Safeway. In Super S you could find non-food items – such as TV’s! Yes, we made it – we were going to watch the lunar landing at Safeway on the display sets. I remember there was a TV set on the glass counter. Not too many people, but some had stopped.

There we stood and watched Neil Armstrong place his foot on the lunar soil. It was the completion of one dream and the beginning of another. It was an unforgettable moment.
Hard to believe that 40 years have passed. It’s a lifetime away.

The moon has inspired poets and romantics, mystics and philosophers since the beginning of time. It’s intrigued scientists. Some say its the same size as the Pacific Ocean – that maybe it was thrown out of there during the early formation of the planetary system? In “Moonstruck” they said the moon was as big as Frank Bigalow’s head! An early Jethro Tull song was an ode to Michael Collins, the one of three astronauts that piloted the mother ship and didn’t make the decent to the lunar surface. How sad to go all that way and not touch it – but each view of the moon finds its own inspiration – whether on the weightless surface, in Croatia, on the counter at Safeway or from the mother-ship. Our moon is inspiring. And today, I can’t resist a harvest moon, a blue moon, an eyelash moon or an eclipsed moon, just to take a break, call the kids outside and observe quietly and in wonder. We stepped on the moon 40 years ago and it still remains away and distant.

When I was a student at the Monastery of Holy Etchmiadzin in the mid-70’s, I would walk in the courtyard and pass away my loneliness looking at the moon knowing that it is the same one we all see around the globe, the same moon that has been viewed by every single human being that has EVER inhabited this planet and every human being that will EVER take a moment to look up to the night sky. It’s our moon. Happy Moon Day.

For Michael Collins, Jeffrey and Me
by Ian Anderson
Watery eyes of the last sighing seconds,
blue reflections mute and dim
beckon tearful child of wonder
to repentance of the sin.
And the blind and lusty lovers
of the great eternal lie
go on believing nothing
since something has to die.
And the ape’s curiosity —
money power wins,
and the yellow soft mountains move under him.
I’m with you L.E.M.
though it’s a shame that it had to be you.
The mother ship is just a blip
from your trip made for two.
I’m with you boys, so please employ just a little extra care.
It’s on my mind I’m left behind
when I should have been there.
Walking with you.

And the limp face hungry viewers
fight to fasten with their eyes
like the man hung from the trapeze —
whose fall will satisfy.
And congratulate each other
on their rare and wondrous deed
That their begrudged money bought
to sow the monkey’s seed.
And the yellow soft mountains
they grow very still
witness as intrusion the humanoid thrill.

Blind Man Running Through the Light of the Night

When news of the Tehran-Yerevan airplane tragedy arrived, we were in the middle of taping this week’s “Next Step” podcast. I was talking about the Light emanating from Christ – the feast of Transfiguration (celebrated this Sunday, 7/19/09). Now, the lights had got out for 168 people. There I was again, at the crash site, holding a flashlight up to the human suffering. It’s a conflict that has followed this priest my entire life: Jesus talks about life, but it is confounded by a reality of death in some very big tragedies.

Ever since we’ve moved to our new studio we’ve had the luxury of an extra monitor which is constantly refreshing different windows with various news feeds. The news of the disaster was literally coming in as a stream of disassociated information – pictures of the crash, a comment from an eyewitness, and of course the useless statistical commentary: When the plane was built. Who built it. How many black boxes, etc. When the dust settled, 168 people were only the immediate casualties. They never give you the number of lives that are devastated, the number of families that will have to cope with the losses, the number of children that will have to grow up without parents, the number of jobs and dreams that ended.

The church came out with a statement. HH Karekin II,issues condolences. After a few hours, it was difficult to find new information. In fact, the event wasn’t even reported on the TV news programs the following morning. (Sadly typical for news coming from Armenia.) So I appreciated the bloggers and the small tweets that followed. And then the screens went blank. It was over – no more news. Sure the American news media forgot it (or never knew it), but so did the rest of us.

But here’s the catch – today is feast of Transfiguration. It is one of the five major FEASTS of the Armenian church. It is a celebration of an event which is recounted in the Gospel – where Jesus transforms to pure light. It is a completely supernatural event. He gives us a glimpse of eternity. Yes, that LIGHT that he radiates is the same one which was there at the beginning of time. It transcends any light source such as the sun, stars or electricity. And it is the light that is needed in the midst of such darkness as plane tragedies, war, and genocide. Its so brilliant, it can overtake all of darkness. It is the assurance of LIFE that cannot be confounded by DEATH even in some very big tragedies. It is HOPE to be shared with a suffering world.

The sad reality is that today, probably most of the victims of the crash are forgotten in our minds. Sad that today, on a major feast day, where requiem (hokehankist) should not be allowed, those who choose to remember will do so only by singing a song of grief and will mourn in hopelessness. Even sadder is that the church won’t make the connection with the Transfigured Christ. And still sadder is that most of those attending churches will get the Wiki-version of a story called Vartavar.

So, I’d like to hold a flashlight at the crash site for those who are looking: today is the Transfiguration of Jesus Christ. Death, whether it comes naturally or super-tragically, is never the darkness that you believe it to be. The Christ LIGHT is over and beyond – it is supernatural – it is a chance to glimpse all eternity.

Download Today’s Sermon (in Armenian)

Blind man running
through the light
of the night
With an answer in his hand,
Come on down
to the river of sight
And you can really understand,
Red lights flashing
through the window
in the rain,
Can you hear the sirens moan?
White cane lying
in a gutter in the lane,
If you’re walking home alone.

Don’t let it bring you down
It’s only castles burning,
Just find someone who’s turning
And you will come around.

-Neil Young

From Numbers to Light – it’s the connection that matters

Next Step #58 – July 15, 2009

Next Step begins with an interesting number theories from listener Yuri in St. Petersburg, Russia. Is it by chance that #57 had all the digits in the date stamp? If so, what about zero? Can you shed some light on that? Jesus did exactly that – with the Transfiguration. Light was not spared to tie us into the beginning of all creation and the end of time as we know it. God’s promise to open our hearts to love and the well-lit path is explored by Fr. Vazken’s expose of the feast of Transfiguration. But don’t fret the esoteric themes, there’s a serving of fish and chips in this episode. It happens to be everything you need and more. Listen in to a wild ride from numbers to light and realize that they are all connected.
Song: “Arev, Arev” by Mariam Matossian
“About Light” by Gor Mkhitarian (Spirit Album)
Bubbles by Ani: Feeding the wolves

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With Freedom Comes Responsibility

Next Step #57 – July 8, 2009

Today. Earth date 7.8.9. Just as the date flows so does this podcast. Two years after the “7×77 Forgiveness Conference” Fr. Vazken recaps the basics of the formula for forgiveness and peace. Also, one final look at the Michael Jackson death story in light of his memorial service. From these topics emerge the concept of responsibility. It is the basis for healthy living and mature faith. Herein Fr. Vazken challenges listeners to a life of purpose and what it means to be free.
Ani’s Spiritual Bubbles: The lonely girl
Music: Bambir’s “J.B.K.”

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Between a Rock and a Soft Place

Next Step #56 – July 1, 2009

When Jesus was asked for a “sign” he offered nothing new. He only pointed to something that was “greater than” the signs. Here’s a casual look at symbols. In the wake of Michael Jackson’s death, Fr. Vazken looks into the ways information was processed, news was gathered, and the tools of technology to make our spirits come alive. The power of music – as expressed through Jackson and a surprisingly similar sound coming from Iran in the quest for freedom. The podcast ends with a special wish to America and the freedom it enjoys on this 233rd anniversary of Independence. Welcome back Gabriel from the Chad desert!

Songs: Sari Siroon Yar by Element Band; Miracles by Gor Mkhitarian
Bubbles with Ani – “The 1000 Mirrors”
The Next Step Theme Song is unveiled (composed and performed by Varoujan Movsesian)

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